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The last post looks so sad when I look at it so I feel like I need to post a picture of a cut dog so we don't feel so down. 

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I have just realized one of my biggest fears..I think.

I'm extremely afraid of failure.  I can't be the only one tho?

You see I have this feeling inside where if there is a moment or situation where I can fail and disappoint people I get sick. I just wanna run away or sitt in a corner. And this is a big problem when you're in school. Because I know that I will fail. It's not like I'm super smart and never gets anything wrong, I'm pretty sure some of this text is misspelled. And even that freaks me out. 

Now in school we are suposed to choose where we want to work or have an internship next year and all I can think of is what I will do wrong. What if i disappoint the people I'm suppose to work whit? What if I do every thing wrong and they start to scream at me (People screaming at me is also a small fear of mine) What if i start crying, freaking out or break stuff. All I can se are the bad things. 

I know that they most likely will not happen, but I still get sick just thinking about it. And that makes me feel weak and like a failure. 

Does anyone else feel like this or is it just me?

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My darling has arrived! 

I got it yesterday but was to lazy to actually blog about it. I was thinking about it but failed in the attempt to get my computer out. It's sad but true. 

Now I'm sitting on the floor in my room and are listning to ASIA, Alphaville and Ulf Lundell. 

And i'm planing on staying here for as long as I can. 

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The time can't go any slower...I'm sitting at home just waiting for my dad to some home, because I have to go get a package from the post office, and it's in his name. 

So I'm just sitting here waiting and waiting. 

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Today once again have been spent infront of the computer with my homework. 

One positive thing tho is that I'm done with my Swedish project and history project so now I only have everything else left...yay! *notice the sarcasm* 

Tomorrow we are starting on a new school project, but at least that one seems to be fun. 

Hopefully i get the chans to go shopping after school. Because I'm in big need of a new pair of shorts or maybe two.. 

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What's up?

I know I haven't been writing a lot lately, and i'm sorry. 

This week has been...well not so great. 

I have been sick almost all week, but i'm feeling a lot better now. 

Today has been good tho. 

Except for the fact that I got yet another big assignment for school. Which is due in a week. 

So i guess this weekend will be spent alone with my computer and the homework. 

One good thing is that next week I will go to cut my hair. And i do really need that. 

Plus I will dye it blonder because right now it looks gross. 

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I would like to tell you some amazing story about what I did today. But I'm still sick so I have basically only been sitting in the living room drawing all day. Hopefully tomorrow will be better. 

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I love days were I don't have to go to school. They are so peaceful and lovely. 

The whole day today has been spent infront of How I met your mother and a teacup. 

I have also been practicing drawing. I'm really bad, but thats why I'm practicing...to get better. 

Can you draw? Maybe you have some smart tips for me!

Anyways. Now I'm going to help with dinner and then it's time for the Vampire Diaries season finally. 

I already know that it's the last episode with Nina so I'm expecting a lot of tears. And of course popcorn. 

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Good morning guys! 

I woke up at 5 this morning so I'm super tired.

Yesterday 5 Second Of Summer had their concert in Stockholm. So my friends and I of course went up to see them. We got there 6 hours before it started and unfortunate it was raining. But we made the best of the situation and ended up playing in the rain, you know like normal people do. 

Most of the concert I was focusing at Lukes face and trying not to have a mental breakdown. I started feeling panik coming when the heat started raising and the music started playing. But focusing on something pretty really helps with calming down. So i basically stared at Luke the whole time. 

But lets be honest. The concert was amazing and I'm looking forward to get to see them again. Hopefully I get the chance to meet them someday. 

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Went shopping today again. 

This time I bought a nail polish and a notepad.

And me and my friend Jenny went to Espresso House for a "Fika". 

It was the first time I have been there since they open and it was really pretty and cosy. 

In school today I had to presentations which of I don't remember anything I said or did. But I hope it went well. 

How was your day?

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So today has been borring as hell...

I woke up this morning feeling worse than I did yesterday. My throat hurts as well as my head and nose. But at least I'm not dead.

I have spent this whole day studying Swedish. I have basically been writing a speech for 8 hours. That I will turn in tomorrow. Hopefully I will have my voice back then. 

Wednesday will be interesting. 

Me and some friends are going to the 5 Seconds Of Summer concert in Stockholm.

If I'm lucky I might not still be sick then. Let's wish for that. 

How was your day? I hope your day was better than mine.

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Hey guys!

Today has been tiring and fun. 

Me, my friend and my family went to Stockholm early this morning to do some shopping.

I found a few things that I liked and bought and I think I'll show them tomorrow. 

Because right now I'm falling a sleep.

What did you guys do today? something fun? pleas tell me, I would like to know!

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This must be one of the most boring blogs ever...

I have now realized I never do anything fun, all I do is study.

And guess what I'm doing right now? Oh, yeah...I'm studying. 

But anyways. Today has been great. And i hope tomorrow will be even better. 

I think I might actually go shopping. Unless I die from fear in class. yeah I go a presentation tomorrow and it freaks me out. But hopefully it will go great and i can go shopping after. 

I really need to go find something to were to the 5 Seconds Of Summer concert next week.

You see I have a small problem. Should I wear what I usually wear and have everyone think I'm wearing it just because it's similar to what the boys wear. 

Or should I wear a dress and freeze my butt off. 

What do you think? Please help me... 

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Study is hard. 

Especially when you actually have now idea what subject you're working with.

I think it might be something business related but I'm not sure...

So i thought...what do you do when you have nothing to do?

Correct answer would be listen to music. So thats what I did. 

I found this song that I really like and decided to share it with you. So we can like it together.

It's called "My Darling" bye Late Night Poets. 

And it's amazing!

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Today has been useless. I only had two classes today and one of them i'm not even sure of what I was doing there. When I got home a few hours ago I directly sat down and started study. 

I can hear my tummy growling and I just realized I haven't been eating anything today.

And one other amazingly good thing *note the sarcasm* we have no food at home. 

So now I need to wait for my parents to come home before I get food. 

Let's hope I can make it that long...

Hey! what's up? your good? well fantastic!

I'm stuck in school trying to make it the whole day. 

I have one and a half class left for today and then I'm going home to study. 

I was planing to go shopping after school but the rain are making it hard for me to find the strength to go outside. So I think I will just be running home as fast as I can. And make me some tea.

Oh, mental note for later: I need to clean my room and go grocery shopping.

What are you doing when you get home from work/school?
P.s I kinda feel like a Zombie today.

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Right now I'm super cold and in need of cuddles. 

It's day 3 and we are still on this island. 

The wether has been terrible toadying the rain has been falling all morning. 

In the afternoon we did cut down a big tree that was standing next to the house. It all went well.

We have just finished eating dinner and are now seated infront of the TV. 

The only thing to watch is some program with people falling and failing. The natives seem to like it. 

I'm now planing to make a face mask and try to blend in and if i'm lucky I might find out how the microwave works so that I can make som popcorn in hopes of pleasing the locals. 

Lots of love, Erika. 

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I’m sorry I didn’t update anything yesterday. Nothing really happened. I just went to school and then went home and that’s it. Well me and my family actually went to an island and there isn’t the best internet here. So I forgot to update. But now I’m back. I’m still on the island but I have found internet connection in one of the rooms. 

Today I have been helping the owners of this house with spring cleaning and I have been cutting down some trees and bushes and we made a bonfire with the branches. 

It was so fun. I love being outside and helping people with stuff. 

Especially if it contains making a fire and throwing stuff in it the whole day. 

Just a few minutes ago me, my sister and father went of a short swim in the sea. 

My legs and arms went numb because the water was 9 degrees Celsius. But it was fun. 

Now I’m sitting in the living room editing a few pictures I took today and I’m waiting for dinner to be ready, because right now I’m starving.