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The last post looks so sad when I look at it so I feel like I need to post a picture of a cut dog so we don't feel so down. 

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I have just realized one of my biggest fears..I think.

I'm extremely afraid of failure.  I can't be the only one tho?

You see I have this feeling inside where if there is a moment or situation where I can fail and disappoint people I get sick. I just wanna run away or sitt in a corner. And this is a big problem when you're in school. Because I know that I will fail. It's not like I'm super smart and never gets anything wrong, I'm pretty sure some of this text is misspelled. And even that freaks me out. 

Now in school we are suposed to choose where we want to work or have an internship next year and all I can think of is what I will do wrong. What if i disappoint the people I'm suppose to work whit? What if I do every thing wrong and they start to scream at me (People screaming at me is also a small fear of mine) What if i start crying, freaking out or break stuff. All I can se are the bad things. 

I know that they most likely will not happen, but I still get sick just thinking about it. And that makes me feel weak and like a failure. 

Does anyone else feel like this or is it just me?

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My darling has arrived! 

I got it yesterday but was to lazy to actually blog about it. I was thinking about it but failed in the attempt to get my computer out. It's sad but true. 

Now I'm sitting on the floor in my room and are listning to ASIA, Alphaville and Ulf Lundell. 

And i'm planing on staying here for as long as I can. 

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The time can't go any slower...I'm sitting at home just waiting for my dad to some home, because I have to go get a package from the post office, and it's in his name. 

So I'm just sitting here waiting and waiting. 

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Today once again have been spent infront of the computer with my homework. 

One positive thing tho is that I'm done with my Swedish project and history project so now I only have everything else left...yay! *notice the sarcasm* 

Tomorrow we are starting on a new school project, but at least that one seems to be fun. 

Hopefully i get the chans to go shopping after school. Because I'm in big need of a new pair of shorts or maybe two.. 

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What's up?

I know I haven't been writing a lot lately, and i'm sorry. 

This week has been...well not so great. 

I have been sick almost all week, but i'm feeling a lot better now. 

Today has been good tho. 

Except for the fact that I got yet another big assignment for school. Which is due in a week. 

So i guess this weekend will be spent alone with my computer and the homework. 

One good thing is that next week I will go to cut my hair. And i do really need that. 

Plus I will dye it blonder because right now it looks gross. 

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I would like to tell you some amazing story about what I did today. But I'm still sick so I have basically only been sitting in the living room drawing all day. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.